Well I guess I kinda knew that I wouldn't be the best at keeping up with this. Not gunna lie, this whole world mess has been screwing with my head and I just haven't been able to find motivation to do much of anything. I get these ideas and then when I have the time to do them I get bummed out and just go to bed or watch a movie.
And its gotten me thinking about the little things in my life that are pushing me to keep going. As the spring that felt like forever turns into summer and the temps start rising above 80 in my tiny little Vermont town I have started looking forward. In a year I will be out of school (finally) and hopefully working or in the processing of finding my career path. In a couple of months if all goes according to plan I'll have gotten a fantastic internship that could open a lot of doors. Looking at even shorter terms, in a couple days I'll have a day off and be able to relax and hopefully craft.
Looking to supports right now I am so grateful to have someone in my life who has been my rock and my shoulder to cry on. I know he doesn't read these since he rarely goes on social media but he is truly amazing and I'd be a lot more undone without him. So thank you babe. And to the friends I have been in touch with lately, you mean the world to me and thank you for being who you are.
Ways to cope? Well I have developed a few. Naps are a big one but I'm justifying them by putting some sleep hypnosis on to try and either tap into a creative flow or to learn French depending on the day. I'm really hoping the French sticks because I have to take a full year of that starting in the fall. Food has been my most unhealthy way to get by. I have a sugar addiction and its in full force. However I have severely cut back on the fast food which is a huge win for me. Lemonade is replacing soda but I still drink way too much coffee for someone my size. Crafting is helping too but I just lose motivation so quickly much doesn't get done. A few fabric cuts here, a painted piece to add on to ears there. I feel kind of pathetic over it.
Soooooo I guess I just wanted to give you guys an update. I plan on posting at least once a week moving forward since I will be linking to this when I apply for that internship. But what can I say? No one is perfect, especially me, and these are weird times. I just hope you are willing to stick with me as I revive myself and capture more magic.
Love,
Em
(adorable pic of Bloat from outside the Seas pavilion in Epcot so this has a thumbnail)
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